Why is it so hard?
Tuesday, November 21, 2006

Extremely worn out today but still stayed up to wait for your call. I didn't complain nor whine, it was just worth mentioning that I didn't stay up - to receive your nonsense. My words may have raised your wrath tremendously but it did not bite back as hard as yours did.

Before the line of projects come to suck our blood and brain juice dry, I should fully utilise what I have now to think about what I should. It comes instantly that our temper can only be the common trait we have - mine short while yours hot. & the only thing that we can ever relate to and empathise with each other's situation is because of our similar temperamental selves. That's why often we tried to give in and tried walking in each other's shoes for a few metres before knowing it's hard - because giving in feels like swallowing down words&balls that surges to escape from your throat. No wonder no 2 similar selves can survive their ordeals because complementing of each other doesn't allow; compromise and accomodation have no room for existence.

So how long can giving in last? If we're all at this tethering situation, where patience has been sucked dry and strength has long gone, will we swallow or spill?

and guess what day's tomorrow. everything's ruined. great.

YWith love, Valerie