keep believing
Tuesday, November 28, 2006

I've chalked a christmas/newyear wishlist for fun, so here is how it goes:

1. christian dior shades/wallet
2. coach tote
3. black dkny watch
4. zara boots/pumps
5. holga/lomo camera
6. walk-in wardrobe
7. curtains :(
8. kingsize bed
9. happiness

There's still more &i do hope my parents are my faithful blogreaders. For wishes#6-8, just hope it's true that we'll shift house soon. :(

Damn my background is really orgasmic.

YWith love, Valerie

Tenacious D & Happy Feet
Sunday, November 26, 2006

Tenacious D is definitely more rad than Happy Feet because I simply enjoy the even flow of peppered idiosyncrasies in relativity to other movies. And I guess its a M18 movie because there was a lot(a lot) of 'fuckyous', 'fucking', 'fuckers', 'suckcock', and 'bonerpushup' excessively used - to epitomise what i was saying, it means they suffixed the word 'fuck' in a lot of different ways. Most importantly, watching it is like attending a gig. 4 stars for TD. 3 for Happy Feet. 2 for Flushed Away!(ug, bloody movie im still feeling upset over it)

Thanks for the ring babe, i hope it locks where my heart is and eradicate all the insecurities i have over you. Not on your part, just me. Oh &have i told you how much i love the you whenever you watch movies with me...because that's when you look so amazingly docile. :)

Now slip under covers to wake up to a cock-a-doodle day!

YWith love, Valerie

Kforkarma
Saturday, November 25, 2006

YWith love, Valerie

Had I known
Thursday, November 23, 2006

It wouldn't be this path I'm taking now.

Anybody who drives and willing to bring me for goodmusic & gooddrinks? I'll love you many many & deep deep hahaha.

YWith love, Valerie

First
Wednesday, November 22, 2006

Sometimes you feel like a distant object away from my beating organ because I can never comprehend you & your thoughts. Sometimes you feel like a best & great friend because in you I find solace that resides. Told you once it's years of togetherness we would rejoice about but I still can't fight the urge to say Happy First Month-sary. After all the fights, it's still Baby, I Love You!

YWith love, Valerie

Why is it so hard?
Tuesday, November 21, 2006

Extremely worn out today but still stayed up to wait for your call. I didn't complain nor whine, it was just worth mentioning that I didn't stay up - to receive your nonsense. My words may have raised your wrath tremendously but it did not bite back as hard as yours did.

Before the line of projects come to suck our blood and brain juice dry, I should fully utilise what I have now to think about what I should. It comes instantly that our temper can only be the common trait we have - mine short while yours hot. & the only thing that we can ever relate to and empathise with each other's situation is because of our similar temperamental selves. That's why often we tried to give in and tried walking in each other's shoes for a few metres before knowing it's hard - because giving in feels like swallowing down words&balls that surges to escape from your throat. No wonder no 2 similar selves can survive their ordeals because complementing of each other doesn't allow; compromise and accomodation have no room for existence.

So how long can giving in last? If we're all at this tethering situation, where patience has been sucked dry and strength has long gone, will we swallow or spill?

and guess what day's tomorrow. everything's ruined. great.

YWith love, Valerie

Danielle won!
Monday, November 20, 2006

I just watched the America's Next Top Model's finale - Danielle Evans won, much to my chagrin that it wasn't Joanie Dodds. Anyway the best one wins. Luckily it wasn't Jade since she is like so complacent but she definitely strut it like she have it.

YWith love, Valerie

Sunday is Magic.
Sunday, November 19, 2006

Even if I have to stay home all day long, sundays just feel magical. It's great to have your own favourite day of the week because in my view, months&years just feel like a breeze when I live for my so-called "next sunday".
Flip the coin, you get a different story - the stretching of every second just makes everything draggy and dull, whereas not fully utilising every second you have being blessed with, makes you cry over time you have lost. I told you, this world it's not only black or white when grey areas exist; no facts & dead rules when contradictions always occur; and when you can trust almost noone but only yourself.

Pangs of guilt striked me today when I almost almost acceded to Daddy's offer of buying me my long lusted-for pair of Christian Dior shades. I don't know how Daddy knows I've been dreaming of its possession. And I'd never thought for all this while it comes a day when I'd reject his kind intention by saying "I'll work for it myself". I brimmed with pride but deep down, I secretly curse myself for not accepting this god-sent offer. Hahaha I know I just said something bastard-ly.

Anyway, Dad got me a brand new n73 today and I felt whoops of joy because the previous one is eroding into a pool of cheap plastic as the mechanisms within start to rust, or at least it seems so to me..

PSPSPS IMPORTANT!
I'm suddenly very happy very happy! I was browsing through friendster and I saw my exboyfriend.. He became so fucking hot.

YWith love, Valerie

Out of reel
Sunday, November 19, 2006

connie pepsi amelia me.


trio.


it's a mess you'll never get out alive.


night mode.


favourite voice.


before day breaks.


rise & shine.


bye bye punggol end.


You know i love you so
when i came out to meet you
in shorts while i was having
a stomach cramp to nurse. Y

YWith love, Valerie

i wish for..
Thursday, November 16, 2006

i guess today's meetup was more than its worth because i feel so so much better about us already. it is definitely praiseworthy to mention that i didn't eat a lot today. good job, me! - cheers to diet plan Z.

just got home and on my table, and on my sister's, is a spanking new organiser! my dad received it from his client days ago and asked if i want it - of cuz i said i do i do, i've been wanting to get one since an eon ago. things gonna get organised as 2007 brandishes itself. i'll never want any homosapien to call me "blur sotong" or whatever "blurness" related names that has been following me like a second shadow ever since primary school.

aloysius was rushed to the hospital today 'cause of some food-related illness. poor boy poor boy. he has to abstain from oily food these days, and i do hope he slims down much in this span of time. you know it's hard it is to control his unhealthy humongous ladles-of-oil appetite. good luck bro.

oh chrissy christmas is coming! we're inadvertently getting into the mood already because almost all shops are executing marketing efforts once more. all passive shoppers are doomed. besides world peace(haha), im hoping for something ethereal as well.

YWith love, Valerie

Thursday, November 16, 2006

now you see it, now you don't.
how like life.

YWith love, Valerie

:[
Tuesday, November 14, 2006

Somehow somewhere someone gave me a link of my copydog. And it was easy weeding, because some of the words on her page are like replicas. At first I was coolly unconcerned, then it was pointed out things got out-of-hand, so now I am coolly concerned that if she can stop because her not-original-it's-okay mindset is irritatingly annoying. I know I am your idol. Thanks, bye, thank you, bye.

On a different note, seeing something I should not made my day&night whole lot worse today. The truth always devour and so, I chose to sleep as it works like putting me on anaesthetic.

YWith love, Valerie

The first star
Saturday, November 11, 2006

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY R2&B2 !

How wonderful the angels i call bestfriends are born on the same date, at the same hospital. Been through the low's and the high's, the ups & the downs which landed us where we're now. Very comforting to know how we picked up from the first year of high school, till today, and no doubts till we all have receding hairlines!

... ok screw hiatus really. I know i've been putting &removing posts plus rongrong pointed out that i seldom update about myself already. Posting now serves a very significant purpose because it seems like i've lost touch with all my friends ever since cute him entered my life.

It's fuckedup feeling when you engaged in a haircut that is not what you expect it to be. And i really miss the whole bottom bunch of it! maybe after 2 seasons it will return back to me. Come back, hair, come back.

It has been a sugary ride, minus the slight bumpiness that is inevitable. Truth be told, I've been learning to curb my deepset habit of throwing tantrums whenever I like it. You paint this: 2 stubborn mules. I say no, he says yes, I say no, he says yes.. it goes on. other times, it's always teasingyou & teasingme. Too bad the sunsets don't stay and sunrises have to come (we fish till morning).
I used to blame you for having not much time spent with me, until now - since my MST has just started. and whenever you say that double-L, it tickles me so much that i have to stop feigning anger. Though sometimes I still doubt your feelings for me, I'm already starting to say the 3words with much clarity at heart. And frequently, your guitar(s) i still hear them playing after we have both put down the phone.
I don't know if it's eternity I'm spending with you but.. hey I just know your voice's my dope.

Losing can most probably be the most heartbreaking lesson we humans can ever learn. What's it like to never get back what was once yours and once here - unimaginable. The most precious thing ever they say it's life. I don't really quite think so, I say its death! For what's life without the existence of death, now you tell me.

YWith love, Valerie

And I keep telling myself...
Sunday, November 05, 2006

YWith love, Valerie

Pepsi is a sweet drink, aye?
Saturday, November 04, 2006

YWith love, Valerie