shut up
Saturday, September 09, 2006

If any has noticed, I did remove a post few days which was filled with angst and fury. Now I'm back to square.

Why is it that you have to rail at me time and time again? I bet you don't even know that that's the thing I fucking fucking fucking hate most.
Why is it that the three of us have to cater to your every whim and fancy without any complaints? We don't have a choice anyway, we are your children you would put.
Why do you want to tie the three of us to your apron strings, wanting us to breathe and live in this comfort zone you have carefully cordoned, and at the same time expecting us to be promising adults in the future?
Why is it that I start to envy my friends now? I always thought I have the best of everything. This time I fell hard, and it hurts.
Why is it I'm having qualms when it comes to the word "Mother"? Now that I'm older, I know what's wrong and what's right. I know how things should be like, well at least not like this.

I don't know how your attitude can change 360degrees everyday, almost amazing I want you to teach me. I don't ask for anybody to tell me what I should do & say, just let me do nothing at all.

YWith love, Valerie